just wait.

You tell me to wait, against all i want to do
You tell me to be still, to sit and listen to You
to trust in Your timing, in Your plans, in Your way
when i so badly want to go, sometimes i must stay
i want to do things myself, oh, to just to have control
but Your ways are much higher, and that's not my role
may i rest in the now, in the present, right here
as i live soley by faith, and never by fear
my hope is in the journey, with You by my side
a joyful expectation; You will always provide


east side story.

i've realized lately how completely obsessed i am with where i live. i've called east nashville home now for the past 9 months, and i couldn't be more proud. just a mile from downtown, across the river, we reside in the 37206 zipcode. it's actually a running joke here in nashville about the east side, the east nashville website accurately calls us "historic - eclectic - hip"...but i think they should also add "endearingly ghetto". you'll see bumper stickers with phrases like "37206: over the river and through the hood"..."37206: we put the hood in neighborhood"..."37206: we'll steal your heart and your lawnmower"...
but even with the "hood" reputation, east nashville is pretty freaking awesome. how could a place that has an annual tomato art festival not be?
i love my building, just a block from 5 points, and how every day i see businesses and residents owning up to the awesomeness (yes, i claim that word) that is east nashville. the nashville scene even did an article on our neighborhood, and how we are all (probably too much) proud residents.

a few of my fav spots:
marche -- i could eat brunch here every day
rumours east -- wine bar with killer patio
turnip truck -- my natural grocery store
bongo java -- my neighborhood coffeehouse
portland brew -- coffeehouse #2
rose pepper -- the best mexican food. ever.


travel to africa this summer!!

the organization i work for, mocha club, is leading 10-12 day long trips this summer to ghana, ethiopia, and south africa. if you have ever thought about going, check it out!! :) [application deadline is february 8]



this is a video from the band sigur ros (who are awesome, by the way)...it was used in an illustration for HOPE this morning at midtown, and i just love it. it's a beautiful picture of the JOURNEY we are all on...and how we must all make a decision about how hope will TRANSCEND CIRCUMSTANCE...and we do it together, in community...to the beat of the same drum, the ANCHOR OF OUR SOUL (hebrews 6:19). we wrestle with despair, generating an energy to be couragous...to overcome fear. overcome anxiety. overcome hopelessness.
in the world's eyes, HOPE is wishing for something that may or may not occur, but according to the Word, HOPE is a joyful expectation...believing in the LIVING HOPE (1 peter 1:3)...the One who has already overcome it all.


perfect harmony.

so the past 4 days have been SO much fun. i had the amazing opportunity to be a part of the worship cd that my church, midtown fellowship, is making (all original songs we sing on sundays written by our worship leaders -- one of the cool things about living in nashville!) it was my first time to record in a studio (besides once in high school, but i barely remember) and i LOVED it!! i was recording BGVs (that's background vocals in the music biz..ha!) and i just felt so alive and full of joy..and then yesterday was my 3rd time being a part of the worship team on sunday mornings, also doing BGVs (aka harmony). and i had this realization that this is totally what i was made for -- sure, i'll sing a solo, and sometimes i do like to lead, but i'm most comfortable and really most gifted in following a leader, in finding that perfect harmony...to complement and make the original part shine and thrive. and then i got to thinking how that is EXACTLY how it's going to feel when i get married -- filling my role of the supporter/helper and making perfect harmony with the man God has to lead me. so cool. and even with my relationship with the Lord -- He is the melody, the lead, yet He welcomes me into the song, to blend and harmonize and make something beautiful.



this too shall be made right.

my heart is breaking for the conflict in kenya...some of my great friends here in nashville are going through deep depression and hard trials...and even in my own life there is much to cry about.
i got to see derek webb play last night, and was reminded that in the wake of so much suffereing and hardship all around, one day, all will be right. this song of his brings me hope....

people love you the most for the things you hate
and hate you for loving the things that you cannot keep straight
people judge you on a curve
and tell you you’re getting what you deserve
this too shall be made right

children cannot learn when children cannot eat
stack them like lumber when children cannot sleep
children dream of wishing wells
whose waters quench all the fires of Hell
this too shall be made right

the earth and the sky and the sea are all holding their breath
wars and abuses have nature groaning with death
we say we’re just trying to stay alive
but it looks so much more like a way to die
this too shall be made right

there’s a time for peace and there is a time for war
a time to forgive and a time to settle the score
a time for babies to lose their lives
a time for hunger and genocide
this too shall be made right

I don’t know the suffering of people outside my front door
I join the oppressors of those who i choose to ignore
I’m trading comfort for human life
and that’s not just murder it’s suicide
this too shall be made right