
according to wikipedia, "plan b" is a popular term used to mean a reserved, secondary plan, in case a first plan (a hypothetical "plan a") fails.
remember my plan back in february to
move to the gulch? well, so far, all signs point to "no". though i've had a ton of showings
(with no negative feedback besides "not quite right") nobody has put an offer on my current place. and here i am, almost 4 months later, feeling like a
failure. didn't i hear God say move forward? didn't all the timing make sense? doesn't God know my dreams & desires? these and many more questions run around my mind and heart as i fight for
contentment. (because, after all, isn't that what i
declared this year to be all about?)
so i'm learning what it looks like to keep hope when we resort to "plan b" - and (if we believe that He is sovereign and in control) that it's really God's "plan a".
i finished reading
ruthless trust (remember
when i started it? - i've seriously loved every page.) and i'm realizing that i took a
risk...and in all practical senses, yes, it failed...i am not moving. but who defines failure? who's to say that God's purpose wasn't this process of waiting and trusting all along?
do i still cling to the certainty that God is
with me and
loves me in my struggle to be faithful and believe? yes. and i continue to ask God to open my eyes to what i've already been given. like habakkuk in the old testament, i, too, shout at God
"how long?" and
"why?" -- but God is answering me in the same way He answered the prophet -- to encourage me to look around and see what
IS happening. that God is speaking and doing things all around me...exactly where i am. because God is
always speaking and moving
(not to be confused w/ me moving...), even when He seems silent.
and He is always providing.
my prayer these last few months has been that God would provide. {and that has been His promise all along.} i knew that if it wasn't a buyer, then it was a roommate.
so, He has provided me with my sweet friend, adria. she has been a constant in my nash-life since the beginning, and i'm looking forward to what this next season holds for us. adria is in a transitional period, so it's definitely not long-term, but we are both learning to rest in contentment and take each day's provision as a gift.
to trust God's plan for today.
so here's to plan b.